Wednesday, March 24, 2010

William Cowper






Today I stumbled upon William Cowper as I was searching for sovereign grace poets on google. I had heard of him briefly through reading different biographies and decided to read/listen to John Piper's "Insanity and Spiritual Songs in the Soul of a Saint" about William Cowper. I really enjoy his poetry but was disturbed as I read his biography and learned about his very depressed life. How terrible to let your mind drift and go on every whim of feeling and bad dream. His story is very intriguing.

Anyways I decide to post a few of his poems I enjoy, I have made bold the lines I really loved.

God Moves In A Mysterious Way

God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea,
And rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never-failing skill
He treasures up His bright designs,
And works His sovereign will.

Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take,
The clouds ye so much dread
Are big with mercy, and shall break
In blessings on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flower.

Blind unbelief is sure to err,
And scan his work in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

Prayer For Patience

Lord, who hast suffer'd all for me,
My peace and pardon to procure,
The lighter cross I bear for Thee,
Help me with patience to endure.

The storm of loud repining hush;
I would in humble silence mourn;
Why should the unburnt, though burning bush,
Be angry as the crackling thorn?

Man should not faint at Thy rebuke,
Like Joshua falling on his face,
When the cursed thing that Achan took
Brought Israel into just disgrace.

Perhaps some golden wedge suppress'd,
Some secret sin offends my God;
Perhaps that Babylonish vest,
Self-righteousness, provokes the rod.

Ah! were I buffeted all day,
Mock'd, crown'd with thorns and spit upon,
I yet should have no right to say,
My great distress is mine alone.

Let me not angrily declare
No pain was ever sharp like mine,
Nor murmur at the cross I bear,
But rather weep, remembering Thine.

The Narrow Way

What thousands never knew the road!
What thousands hate it when 'tis known!
None but the chosen tribes of God
Will seek or choose it for their own.

A thousand ways in ruin end,
One only leads to joys on high;
By that my willing steps ascend,
Pleased with a journey to the sky.

No more I ask or hope to find
Delight or happiness below;
Sorrow may well possess the mind
That feeds where thorns and thistles grow.

The joy that fades is not for me,
I seek immortal joys above;
There glory without end shall be
The bright reward of faith and love.

Cleave to the world, ye sordid worms,
Contented lick your native dust!
But God shall fight with all his storms,
Against the idol of your trust.

These are ones of nature.....

Epitaph On A Hare

Here lies, whom hound did ne’er pursue,
Nor swiftewd greyhound follow,
Whose foot ne’er tainted morning dew,
Nor ear heard huntsman’s hallo’,

Old Tiney, surliest of his kind,
Who, nurs’d with tender care,
And to domestic bounds confin’d,
Was still a wild Jack-hare.

Though duly from my hand he took
His pittance ev’ry night,
He did it with a jealous look,
And, when he could, would bite.

His diet was of wheaten bread,
And milk, and oats, and straw,
Thistles, or lettuces instead,
With sand to scour his maw.

On twigs of hawthorn he regal’d,
On pippins’ russet peel;
And, when his juicy salads fail’d,
Slic’d carrot pleas’d him well.

A Turkey carpet was his lawn,
Whereon he lov’d to bound,
To skip and gambol like a fawn,
And swing his rump around.

His frisking wa at evening hours,
For then he lost his fear;
But most before approaching show’rs,
Or when a storm drew near.

Eight years and five round rolling moons
He thus saw steal away,
Dozing out all his idle noons,
And ev’ry night at play.

I kept him for his humour’s sake,
For he would oft beguile
My heart of thoughts that made it ache,
And force me to a smile.

But now, beneath this walnut-shade
He finds his long, last home,
And waits inn snug concealment laid,
‘Till gentler puss shall come.

He, still more aged, feels the shocks
From which no care can save,
And, partner once of Tiney’s box,
Must soon partake his grave.

The Poplar Field

The poplars are felled, farewell to the shade
And the whispering sound of the cool colonnade:
The winds play no longer and sing in the leaves,
Nor Ouse on his bosom their image receives.

Twelve years have elapsed since I first took a view
Of my favourite field, and the bank where they grew,
And now in the grass behold they are laid,
And the tree is my seat that once lent me a shade.

The blackbird has fled to another retreat
Where the hazels afford him a screen from the heat;
And the scene where his melody charmed me before
Resounds with his sweet-flowing ditty no more.

My fugitive years are all hasting away,
And I must ere long lie as lowly as they,
With a turf on my breast and a stone at my head,
Ere another such grove shall arise in its stead.

'Tis a sight to engage me, if anything can,
To muse on the perishing pleasures of man;
Short-lived as we are, our enjoyments, I see,
Have a still shorter date, and die sooner than we.


Well I could post of of his poems here but it would be a very long post so I'll leave you where you can read more on your own, their so eloquently written.

WILLIAM COWPER POEMS








Love,

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Treading The Thin Line





As most have you have already heard the House has just passed President Obama"s health care reform bill Sunday night. I have to admit both Ben and I were really frustrated at first. There still is some disappointment which I guess is hard to not feel. The one major issue that bothered me the most was the federal funding on abortion. So through our taxes we all will be helping women abort their babies? If this is what I understand it to be I have an issue with that as well as many believers should. In our government's regulations someone can be an accessory to murder without ever being the person to execute the main crime but still serve time for it. To me it feels like we all are accessory to murder of these unborn babies.

My strong faith and passion for the Lord deeply conflicts with this new "could be" mandate from our president and congress men. So my question I've been pondering to myself is this.....How far are we to tread this thin line? Where is there a definitive answer?

"Why do you ask me about what is good?" Jesus replied. "There is only One who is good. If you want to enter life, obey the commandments." "Which ones?" the man inquired. Jesus replied, " 'Do not murder, do not commit adultery, do not steal, do not give false testimony, honor your father and mother,' and 'love your neighbor as yourself."- Mathew 19;18,19

"Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you. "You shall not murder. "You shall not commit adultery."You shall not steal. "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor. -Exodus 20;8-16

"If you really keep the royal law found in Scripture, "Love your neighbor as yourself," you are doing right. But if you show favoritism, you sin and are convicted by the law as lawbreakers. For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it. For he who said, "Do not commit adultery," also said, "Do not murder. If you do not commit adultery but do commit murder, you have become a lawbreaker. - James 2;8-11

In I Peter 2:13 it says "Submit yourselves to every ordinance of man for the Lord's sake: whether it be to the king, as supreme; Or unto governors, as unto them that are sent by him ....

Then again in these verses....

"Notwithstanding, lest we should offend them, go thou to the sea, and cast an hook, and take up the fish that first cometh up; and when thou hast opened his mouth, thou shalt find a piece of money: that take, and give unto them for me and thee. "-Mathew 17;27

"They say unto him, Caesar's. Then saith he unto them, Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's; and unto God the things that are God's. "-Mathew 22;21

My thoughts are , how deepy rooted are we to be in these verses? If the "law of the land" was that we all were to commit murder once a day ordained by our government then what? Is not paying for a unborn baby to be murdered that different? I'm merely writing out my thoughts so if any of you have any thoughts or feedback please don't be shy :) This issue really bothers me, its a bit confusing to me as what through scripture we are to do. Where does the Lord's law overcome that of man?



I read this article that Bear had posted on his facebook which I think is a great reminder to us all to not get carried away with this world, specially with its corrupt politics(health care bill) I know I've been guilty of this lately....specially the night of the bill passing. We all need to remember that we are not of this world, merely living in it for a brief time. James 4;14 says..."yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes." We (I) need to trust in God's will and maintain our testimonies. In this article the author talks about being a strong witness through these difficult times to show God's glory throughout that He is the only constant in this world. Really great article if you get a chance read it...........

"Is it a problem that some of us who are tranquil as still water about biblical doctrine and ecclesial mission are red-faced about Nancy Pelosi and the talking heads on MSNBC? Is it a problem that some who haven’t shared the gospel with their neighbors in months or years are motivated to vent to strangers on the street... about how scary national health care will be?"

Also I'm sure that many of you have seen/heard/read Piper's message "No,Mr. President", but I wanted to post this video because its such a strong message, Piper really knows how to make an impact with his sermons.








Love,

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Fresh New Look




I have been playing around with my blog look and have found this fresh new design I've come to love. I need to get back to writing more consistently on here.

A few advent poems from John Piper's poems on Ruth......

As we light candle one, I pray
That bitter providence today
Tomorrow will taste very sweet,
And every famine that we meet
And every broken staff of bread
In death, will bring us life instead.

And meanwhile in the darkness here,
Where tribes and races hate and fear,
O Lord, let Bethlehem ignite
A flame of truth, and let us fight
With love and joy to make it plain
That fam'ly links are not a chain,
And origins do not control,
Half images are not the whole,
Nor true, and take a rending toll,
Beneath the skin there is a soul.
And may we lift this light and truth
For Boaz and for every Ruth.

And so the light of candle three
Today, is meant to help us see,
That waiting is a holy work
Of faith in God. Nor does there lurk
Beneath the timing of his ways
Some secret malice that displays
Itself in holding back the flow
Of future grace. God does not go
From here to there by shortest routes;
He makes a place for faith and doubts.
Nor does he hasten on his way,
But comes when it is best, today,
Or maybe twenty years from now,
Or more. With Boaz we will bow
To God, and there embrace the truth:
Some serve like Mara, others Ruth.

Come candle four and blaze this truth.
Ignite in us the faith of Ruth.

- John Piper

To read the whole four poems go to DESIRING GOD.

Well, that is all I have for tonight, I wish you all a good week!





Love,

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Church Fire

Hello Everyone,
As most of you know who read my blog , our church was destroyed by a fire this past Saturday.
When we met at the Comfort Inn on Sunday to worship and discuss the damages Eric Yoder had asked us if we'd like to share about what Emmanuel Bible Church (the building) meant to them. I wanted to speak up but knew it'd be too emotional, so I'm writing it down now for reflection......


Emmanuel Bible Church the building meant a lot to me because coming to there the first time a few years ago was a representation of a pivotal time in my life. After I started coming to Emmanuel I could really see God, he opened my eyes to His word and used Emmanuel Bible Church along with that building to call me. Emmanuel the building will always ... See Morebe a treasured memory to me. I'll never forget my first Sunday there and the people I met and the the love I felt from everyone there right from the start even though they barely knew me. I remember thinking how un special the building inside and out seemed to me, just very plain and not big and exciting like other huge main stream churches were.I learned quickly that I was so wrong on my inital perception, what our building lacked in appeal visually it over compensated with love and warmth and a strong sense of God and His word. I had no idea that first Sunday how much my life was about to change and that God was going to use these amazing people in that building to bring about His will in my life. The lessons and relationships that have been built there I will always remember and hold dear to my heart the rest of my life. It was just walls but it held inside the most encouraging, challenging, loving people I've ever known. I'm just so thankful that God blessed me with the time there inside that building that I had and how much of a forever impact in my life was made. I'll never forget where I met my church family and all the amazing ways God challenged me through Eric, Derek ,Bill, and Charlie's lessons. All the wonderful and fun times we all shared there like the chili cookoff, sunday dinners, and our recent italian dinner. I'm going to miss it.



Love, Jennie

Friday, February 26, 2010

Great News

Hello Everyone,

Most of you read my facebook page and already know my good news, but for some of you who don't know yet I thought I'd blog about it. Well Ben and I have been waiting til yesterday for our appointment to meet with a maternal fetal medicine doctor,Dr. Gill(he also helped in my previous pregnancy). We wantyed to sit down with him and discuss our options and risks of having a 2nd baby. I was really nervous about going because I wasn't 100% sure what he would say. He could say it would be too dangerous to try again or my health was bad. Thankfully the appointment went a lot better than I thought it would.

He told us that my chance of developing preeclampsia again would be about 10%, which came as a pleasant surprise to me because the doctor that delivered Mazio ,Dr. Wilson, told me I had about a 20% chance or more to get it again. What a relief to know its not as severe. He went through both of our family medical histories to determine what health complications could have contributed to me developing preeclampsia. The only big health issues came from my side...diabetes and high blood pressure. He thought it was just a normal health concern so he suggested I lose the rest of my "nicu" weight before we try again. I totally agree I want to definately lose the weight before we try. He also suggested we wait 4-6 months til we try to conceive again so that my c-section scarring can get stronger. So that will be about this July, so thats when we plan on trying which works out good fro me, it gives me more time to lose this weight.
The whole office there really made me feel more comfortable about trying for a 2nd pregnancy. The onenurse even said she'd give me her number so that when I am feeling scared to call her any time and that she'd help be an emotional support as well as physical with the pregnancy. That made me feel better. They kept telling me to let them be the ones who worry and I just relax and enjoy the next pregnancy. I really couldn't have got a better doctor and staff as my team. This whole news has been such a blessing and answered prayer, Ben and I really want more children however it works out, whether we adopt or conceive. We still [plan on adopting ,hopefully after this 2nd pregnancy. Oh my doctor is also doing blood work to test for lupus. I don't have any signs at all but he just wanted to rule out an autoimmune disorder as underlying issue that could have contributed to my preeclampsia. We should hear back about those results next week or so, but I'm really not worried about it. Well thats my great news! I know I've really been slacking here on my blog. Lately I've just been going through a rut, but I think I'm coming out of it now.




Love,

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Prayer Request

Hello Everyone,

I know its been a good while since I've posted a blog. I have a lot I want to blog about in the coming days and weeks though so keep checking in :)

Many of you know I have a son, Mazio, and you know the illness that I developed which ultimately was the reason for his early birth. Preeclampsia. One word that could have me shuddering as soon as I hear it. This disease had haunted me my whole pregnancy. Its one of the most common problems in pregnancy and also unfortunately the leading cause of death for infants and mothers. Its pretty scary because it doesn't discriminate, it can happen to anyone at anytime in their pregnancy. It just shows up over night and can get worse in the blink of an eye. I was lucky my life and my son's had been spared by this disease, but there are so many who don't get happy endings.
Its been 7 months now since Mazio was born. I said when he was born that I didn't want to think about anymore til he is 2. As you can guess, right now I'm really feeling the itch for more. I would love to have many more babies! I love everything about being a mother. That is what puts me here at a cross roads. Experts say that I have about a 20% chance of developing preeclampsia in a future pregnancy. Which that doesn't sound too bad, that means there is an 80% chance of not getting it, however there is still a chance. If you have had preeclampsia once you know what its like and wouldn't want to go through all that again. I really enjoyed my pregnancy despite the illness. Ben and I have been discussing our options and what we want to do. We were debating on adoption or trying again. Although we do want to adopt some day, we have chosen to try again this summer.
I'm feeling good about our decision but some days are better than others. Naturally I do get scared. I joined the preeclamsia.org website so I could learn from other women and share my story. Maybe I will be able to comfort another woman going through what I went through. When I was in the hospital I often read the stories of other women on this site to gain a better understanding and comfort. Recently there was a posting on the site of all the member's who lost babies due to this disease, and I began to just ball all morning. All those precious babies all gone, to see them all written out was just heart breaking. It made me realize what I could lose. I know if God willed for us to lose a baby when we try again that we would get through it and do our very best to glorify Him throughout it all, but I'm human still. I know how bad my heart would break and how deeply sad I'd be. I've felt much stronger about this before and like I said some days are better than others. I really would like your prayers on this. I feel confident in our decision, I just need encouragement in this area. I do trust in God and whatever His will would be for our future child. We know God will use this child for His will regardless and that does bring peace to me. I just ask for your prayers. Thank you all!




God Bless,

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Stepping Forward

Hey Everyone


My writers block is finally gone!!....for now :) I'm sorry its been so long since I've written anything. I think I know what it feels like to feel sort of "luke warm" ,as I recently heard a woman say, with my walk with Christ lately. I have just been feeling blah. Like the passion has subsided a bit. Its kinda sad. God gives you these deep convictions of heart and all the passion that comes with it and you feel on fire, then it slowly cools and you start the process of living to those convictions and the intense feeling isn't so intense. Do you know what I mean? I think I've also been occupying my mind/ time with unimportant things and lacking in my reading His word. I have felt really guilty about it and thats the reason I haven't written much or might be why I hadn't had much I felt I could write about. I love how God uses the simplest means to wake us up.

Well any ways recently I've been thinking about fellow like minded women in the past. Their lives were so different then mine now. They worked so hard. They don't have the modern day advantages I have today. They couldn't go to the grocery store and buy frozen meals, or drive cars, buy their clothes pre-made. We live such lazy lives compared to them. And we have all these amentities due to technology. We take for granted so much. I think though because back then people's lives were shorter and harder that people were deep thinkers and enjoyed talking much more. When I say talking I don't mean we don't enjoy talking today, but they really listened better in conversations.

So lately I decided since I enjoy being crafty and really want a better mind set and try to tap into that reality of theirs, I started to sew and try quilting and want to start knitting. I know that might sound silly, but I think it kinda shows what women had to do back then and as it says in the bible as women we're to tend to our homes. I think God could really work in me by teaching me a simpler mindset. I've had to battle my sin of laziness, something I've had my whole life. The youngest with 3 brothers I had it pretty easy growing up. So I'm thinking by learning more on sewing and etc... it might help me understand self discipline. I know this might sound a bit silly, but if you think about it how much time do we spend being lazy or tending to our wants. And how much of all that do we learn to be grateful for what we have? Its crazy that as humans and sinners all we naturally think about is...me. And I WANT this or that. So wonder we push away God.

Well these were my thoughts for today, I know it wasn't much and hopefully soon I'll have something better!



Love you all,
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